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[18 Sep 2002|05:07pm] |
Hey Guys,
As you can see I changed my Journal to Friends ONLY! So if you want me to add ya to my friends list just leave me a comment and I'll add ya back! LYL
Jess
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[17 Sep 2002|06:07pm] |
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Hey Guys,
Whassup? Sorry I didn't update for awhile.. ugh my dad was trying to update something on my computer and it messed up my cable connection up! Ugh, I am soo pissed right now! Now I have to use the phone line till it gets fixed! Its soo freakin slow! Anyways... no one has really told me any good sites on where I can find good Justin Timberlake pix... so I can't change my posts to friends only till someone helps me out here! LOL... School is going well for... I am so used to my new friends and all.. they are all pretty cool... n I was worrying I would have a hard time making new friends... I made so many!! haha I don't even know all of their names.. haha anyways... guys u gotta give my the justin timberlake links fast so I can actually tell you was up with my mind... cuz I feel so trapped not being able to actually say anything in my journal... i hope I can soon! well I am going to look for some good sites... so LEAVE Comments!
LYL
Jess
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Hey Guys,
Whazup? Hows everything going for you all this week? Well for me, I had a fabulous week! Everything went well! I don't know why, everything just fell into the right place! I am glad I had a good week though. School is going by so fast this year! (Thanks God) Not that I don't like my school or anything, its just I don't like getting up in the morning and going to school most of the times and after awhile I just feel like coming home. I have Monday off BABY!! Yeah! LOL Ya guys like my new Icon? LOL Justin Timberlake is so FINE! I mean damn.. he looks so good! LOL Does anyone know where I can find good pictures of him? Like recent ones? Because I want to make a layout that matches my icon? So if anyone knows any good sites link me them! I still have soo much on my mind. I am thinking about making my journal FRIENDS ONLY! So I can actually say names and all cuz a lot of people have a link to my journal... so maybe after I make my layout I will change it to friends. Well after I make my layout I am going to open up about whats been on my mind... so COMMENT ME! LYL!
<3 Always,
Jess
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[10 Sep 2002|12:32pm] |
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Hey Guys,
Whassup? Me? Well I don't have school today since its election day for the county I think. I am soo bored.. I have nothing to do since all my other friends are in school... school is going pretty well now... school seems to be going fast since I have 4 classes... I have: French 1 - Geometry H - Biology H - D Lunch - Art 1... they are all good... I really don't care if there long... cuz the day goes by fast.. rather then havin 8 classes a day like I did in my old school.. but I still miss it all very much.. because when u really think about it I will never be able to see my old class as a whole.. or if we do nothing will ever be the same... and thas sad... I probably feel like this because none of them go to my school... yeah well... there are so many changes occuring with me! Physically and mentally? I feel so weird right now... its hard to explain.. but I still feel empty... I don't know what to do right now... have you ever wanted to cling onto someone that u couldn't have anytime soon? well I kinda feel like the right now... I don't know what to do because what I am wanting is gonna be hard to accomplish.. ya know? but if its the right way its possible it can happen right? I mean I want someone I can't have... I don't think I will ever get to have him.. but atleast to have a closer relationship with him is all I askin for! Does anyone get me... or is this some other teenage stage?? Or what? I have so many questions i need answers for... ya know? could someone please tell me if this is a stage so I don't have to have so much crap flowing through my head... but ya neva know it could happen right? I don't know.. guys play a big role in a girls life... yet they don't know how much we go through ... even a little crush blows up in your head sometimes... i don't know i think i am goin crazy... i need some advice... so if you can help comment me...PLEASe
I am still in need for a icon.. if anyone can help... just comment me!
<3 always,
jess
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[07 Sep 2002|08:01pm] |
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hey guys,
hows everyone doing? I made my first layout without some expensive program. I used this photo shop program that came with my computer. Tell me how it looks... i just need a icon that matches... but every icon people post are always Britney Spears.. and I am not a very huge fan of hers.. yeah anyways, school is going better then it was in the beginning.. i made SOOO many new friends.. they just gradually start conversatin with ya after awhile ya know? so I am glad I go through the social part if school well.. ugh this guy asked me out... haha i don't even know him?? and he knows me very well?? kinda scary there... i was like no hun.. i don't go for people i don't know.. and i am lookin so sorry! yeah well obsessing over guys isn't what i am into right about now... ya know? i dunno... i just am not interested right now.. i just want to maintain good grades in school.. and have fun with my friends rather then deal with the pain of guys! i am already trying to get over this guy i hardly know ya know? i just feel so empty without talkin to him..i mean i don't like him or anything like that.. ugh online?? i am not that crazy..its just feels like i lost a friend...anyone ever felt like that b4? I mean he is my ex crushes cousin.. i have chatted with him online for like 3years.. but we have never met..which gets really annoyin after while.. but i talked to him on the phone and all.. but i don't know.. just feel empty.. but its kinda fading away now.. because since school started he dosen't get online.. but i saw him online once after that ,,, but he neva replied to my email so I didn't really appreciate that very much thas why its fading away gradually.. ugh enough of him.. i am just getting sick and tired of my caring side... i care too much sometimes!.....yeah well today i went to church ... it was very boring but i got to spend some quality time with my cousins and all... then i came home and worked on this layout a lil .. if dosen't look right.. some one tell me soon... ugh i miss dana soo much... shes my best friend and i hate that we are going to different schools.. i mean i don't have a friend thats so close to me at phs... so whenever i have something on my mind it has to stay there till i get a chance to hang with dana.. well i guess life isn't always easy ya know? hey if anyone can make me a icon comment me!!!
yeah i guess thats all for now.. i'll update later! LEAVE COMMENTS!!!
<3 Always,
Jess
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[02 Sep 2002|12:57pm] |
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Hey Guys,
I can't believe I didn't post for a long time... even when school started... thats probably cuz I didn't really like the way my journal was lookin... THANKS BUNCHES!!! to step_on_me... she made the layout... icon... and everything...! Well school is going pretty well... it kinda sucked.. in the beginning.. but now since i know lots of peeps its real good... the teachers are gettin on everyones case... cuz we always have to where our ID's ... ugh.. i probably will make a trade card or something with my ID pic.. haha.. yeah well... I think I am going to like this school... lol I met a girl name Brenda.. she is soo funny... i think if i am going to get close to any of my new friends it would probably her... she's in my ART1 class... its so funny... we always crack on this guy named Rocky... haha... he likes her i think... but its so funny .. cuz he didn't know how to put his book cover on so he asked us... so we put it on for him and his book tore apart when he went back! ahhaa... we killed it... lol but anyways... I am feeling really empty right now... i feel like I have lost something or someone and I can never get them back...ya know? I feel like I have nothing in my body except air... i don't know whats up with my body... i just feel lost... anyone ever felt llike that b4?? i dunno.. i had a fever also...hmm lol... for the past couple of days,,, but i don't have a cold or anything... i dunno but i hope i feel better soon! I have much strange stuff going around in my head! i don't know whats going on with me! i feel so lost and all... i think i need more rest... and i sorta have a clue why? but i rather not say cuz i don't want to be wrong... well i'll post later!
Jess
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Hey Guys,,
I am sooo bored!!! I can't wait till school starts on Monday.! My orientation is tomorrow night at 7... i really don't understand why its that late! ... but oh well... my sister is takin me ... lol i am happy my parents aren't coming though... on friday i have to go to the airport since my sister is leaving for college... then I have to go back to my school and get my ID and all that...I kinda wish I went to TA... its this school that was connected to my old school... so most of the people who graduated with me are going there... it kinda feels awkward though... me and dana are going to different schools and all... i hope we don't change... and our friendship goes somewhere .... well anyways.. TA started today... so i don't have much company... except some people that are going to different high schools rather then me or TA... but anyways i think i can survive all this... just a few more days and i will be ready to go... yeah well nothing other than that has been going on... my life is just goin along... day by day... i went to the mall yesterday and got my eyebrows waxed... i usually don't do that since it looks more natural when i do it ... but oh well... it looks good... except for the fact its irritating me a lil...anyways... i'll update later about orientation!
<<3 Jess
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[19 Aug 2002|01:02pm] |
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Hey Guys,
I haven't really updated in awhile because I don't know what to say.... but on Thursday night I went to this place called the Hiding Place... its a place to hang out and all... each week they have a different cultural program I guess... but it was Indian Night... so they had all this dances and stuff... I saw my friends there... dana, luch, justin, raj... then they had music for everyone to dance... lol some people were embarassing themselves...and i got requested to dance... which i didn't do... maybe if some people weren't there.. i wasn't in the mood either so I didn't go...Dana stayed over after that... we talked talked and talked.... lol it was really fun though... we were eating till 5 AM... we talked about so much! I am glad we actually talked about it... we never talk about stuff like we talked about that night... on friday we went to the olive garden... it was sooo good.... then we went to the mall.... well its kinda hard to explain... but we went to SASDAC vespers... to see someone... but he left before we could talk to him and all .... we came.. . home and took pictures and ate.. till like 3,,, but we were on the phone... with someone I rather not say... anyways yesterday I went to a engagement party... it was good i guess.. i saw a cute guy though lol... umm today i don't really know what I am going to do... my sister wants to go out somewhere to hang out since she is going to school on friday... well i still have a lot on my mind though.. but i'll ttyl
<33 AlwAys
JEss
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I close my eyes,
And even when I'm sleeping
I'm alright,
'Cause You are in my life.
Once upon a time,
I only imagined this
And now You're mine.
Which feels so good..
Prayed that You'd find me;
Baby you?re here today,
Here to remind me:
If you believe that dreams come true,
There's One that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw You
That when you want something enough,
That it can't escape Your love.
There is nothing in the world that cannot be...
If you believe, oh oh...
Everybody said
That I was a fool to think
That we could bear; (Everybody said that...)
But I couldn't get my heart out of my head,
And they just didn't see;
No, they just couldnt of
The feeling that You get,
The places that You go...
If you believe that dreams come true,
There's One that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw You
That when you want something enough,
That it can't escape Your love.
There is nothing in the world that cannot be...
If you believe.
Never wished for material things;
Never needed wind in my wings.
I never wished for anything but You...oh!
I can't explain it,
Someone just told me,
"Go where your heart is,
You'll never be lonely."
If you believe that dreams come true,
There's One that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw You
That (when you believe) when You want Someone enough,
Then they can't escape Your love.
There is nothing in the world that cannot be,
If you believe.
Believe, believe, believe, ooh...
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Hey Guys,
I know I haven't updated with anything interesting lately... well I have a lot on my mind lately... I really can't wait till my school starts! I feel so dumb right now... my so called friends are being really true right now... I mean they tell me we are best friends... but they only come to me only when they have problems... but when there isn't any problems this person dosen't talk to me? Whats up with that? I feel like they take advantage of me cause I am so nice to them... well I am getting sick and tired of it all... I am so happy none of them are going to be in my high school! Praise God! I don't know why I ever wanted to graduate with them? Even if we are not in school people still cause shit! Why can't they shut the hell up for once? I mean my old class had the most problems in the whole school cuz they can't stop talking about each other! Jeez... my best friend.. Dana... is the only one who has been there for me through thick and thin! I mean people try to make me think wrong of her and all... but I am never going to believe them... only if she tells me! Cuz we had a couple of ups and downs... but our friendship hasen't changed one bit! I mean thats something strong... I will never let go of that because I know this friendship is meant to stay life long! I also have another friend... not quite a best friend... but he's kinda getting there... his name is Justin... he's the kinda guy who can make you laugh... he listens.. he dosen't cause shit with me... he makes me happy! I am so glad I have Dana and him... because if nobody else is there for me.. i know I can count on them... i have a few others that I can count on also... its kinda funny though... their in 8th grade... but they also understand.. so yeah...i know i will find true people sooner or later...well i don't know if any of you have seen a walk to remember... but that was the sweetest movie! I cried at the end... I dunno but I love all those love movies... it actually makes me wonder if there are guys in the world like that? I kinda wish too much...about that...I mean sometimes I just want a guy that much... i know I am young and all... but its soo strong! I know this guy online his name is Anthony... I have known him for 3 years or so but he is soo sweet... but its true online you would never know if they are really nice personally since you are chatting with them... I mean we open up to each other and tell each other things... I talked to him on the phone... once.. I know I am stupid... lol and he lives in Montana... so it was so money... but I don't think I would ever call anyone else online... but hes different... But I personally want to meet a guy like him here where I live... because... its kinda like a dream some girls have like to meet the perfect guy... but there is no such thing... so I can dream though... but I know I'll find the person for me in a few years.. but for some reason... i have a strong feeling its my old crush... some of you may know the story... but he's someone I thought I loved! I kinda stupid.. .but yeah... i mean everytime I would dream of my marriage... he's the only one that showed as the groom... no one else would show up... even if I tried to change the person... he wouldn't change! Kinda scary but... yeah and recently he's the only one I can only think of... I haven't been in school with him the past year and all of a sudden he's the only one I can think about... why the hell is that? I mean I thought I got over him... to tell you the truth i actually don't go by a day without thinking of him! I dunno.. I am strange... but this is my journal where I put my thoughts and feelings and all... no understands what I go through... if you see you would never think this stuff goes through my head unless I opened up to you personally... I guess everything happens for the best... so I believe i'll find the right person sooner or later! Well I am going to go now!
<<3 Jess
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hey guys,
nothing much has been going on lately, but my cousins wrote me from India! LOL I thought he wouldn't write to me but he did. He promised me he would write me the day I left and he did. I guess he kept his promise... I have to write him tonight. Well I can't wait till I start high school... I am going to Parkdale High...this ghetto high school beside my house. I really wanted to go to a mixed school... but this is where I live so I guess I can live with it for a year... I really am getting sick of my people in my old school. Its like I don't know them anymore... I guess I shouldn't take people as true friends really fast... they are just 2 faced punks... they all try to act like people they are not... I am so happy I am not going to a school with them... no one will be with me and I am so happy about that. It just annoys me when people are like keep in touch ... never change, ... and all that shish... but oh well... i know i am the one that didn't change!... so I guess I am not loosing anyone special... as long I have my best friend I am cool with that. I saw a walk to remember last night... have you ever wanted those stories to come true... i always wanted the special person just to come to me as my angel... so life would be so easy... well I guess thats only a fantasy... oh well thats all for now!
<<33 Jess
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Hey Guys,
I am going to camp with my church... i'll be back on saturday night or sunday morning... ttyl! by the way... i love michelle branch! her music kicks ass!
<33 Jess
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[12 Jul 2002|10:09am] |
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Hey Guys,
Whats up? i love it over here! I want to stay here forever! I never thought India would be this fun! I am having so much fun with all of my cousins over here. I mean I opened up to them yesterday and they opened up to me! LOL It really did feel weird cuz they are older then mem.. n you know guys can be over protective over their lil cousins! I hung out with them the whole day~ I can't wait till I see them today! LOL Last year I would never get along with my cousin Prince, but now me n him are soo close! I mean he's like my best guy cousin... lol its so fun hanging with him! he is so cool to hang with, funny and all... all my other cousins are cool also, especially when we play all these games together! I can't wait till I go to Prince's house today... we have so much to catch up on over night ... lol I know you all may think I am kinda crazy but I am having fun.. I have to leave from this part of india and go to my other side of cousins house... eww they are playing Im a slave for you! LOL this kinda weird for Indian people... even though they like britney... oh well... hope you all are having fun with your vacation time... I don't know if I'll be able to update in the next couple of days cuz I have church 2morrow...n Sunday I am leaving in the morning... so I'll try to update on Monday! Well I hope you all doing good! Take Care LYL
<33 Jess
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[09 Jul 2002|11:11am] |
Hey Guys,
I am in Malaysia right now! I am soo exhausted from traveling! It is so annoying and boring sitting in the plain for 22 hours! I am going to India tonight! I can't wait cause I am really sick of walking and being so tired I just want to go and rest now! I went swimming yesterday! It felt soo good! I am going to go after my internet time is up! I hope I don't get my period today cuz then it will suck on the plane and I will be all moody and all! I really miss talking to my LJ Budz and my home Budz! So I am going to go now and email everyone! Hope everyone is doing well! n yeah I am doing good and having fun here! LYL
<33 Jess
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[09 Jul 2002|10:08am] |
Hey ya'lls,
I am in India! LOL I saw my cousins and all none of them look real different! wELL I AM ABOUT TO LEAVE NOW SO TTYL
JESS
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[07 Jul 2002|08:27am] |
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Hey Guys,
I am in hong kong right now! It sucked when I first came here! But now I like it.. i am on my way to malaysia in a couple of hours! Hope you all are having a good summer so far. I had lots of fun on the plain! I 'll tell you whats up later! well i'll update in india!
Luv
Jess
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